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To someone that i knew

For such a long while now
We haven't been near like we used to
The smiles and laughter have seemed to fade
Just like the sun into the ocean in the evening sunset..

Under that star scattered skies
I only remember the warmth of your hands
The sweet scent of your hair
The soothing sound of the waves..

Why is it we
Two such complete people together
Have to move separate ways in the end?
Until overwhelming silence is what remains between us..

But still
I have to thank you
I can't place the right words for this
But I think you can feel how i feel even after this long break..

Thank you
If you hadn't left me
My future will be in darkness
I would not know the importance of love..

And lastly also sorry
For everything and anything
That i have ever done wrong to you
And lastly is that
You will still be in my heart..

[` LiN2o13// scattered memories]
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hey hey!! oh yes! happy valentine's day.. belated anyway.. LOL.. there's something wrong wid my blog clock.. so dun bother.. ya.. ahaha.. hmmm.. anyway.. i remembered last year's 14th feb v v v vividly.. LOL.. the unforgettable day in potong pasir wid -ahems- my valentine of cox.. LOL.. ahahah.. but sadly time wears everything away.. yep..

this yr was a v subtle day to start wid for valentines.. but was greeted by mani presents from my og and ct girl members.. because only gerls bother to do such things.. guys.. rarely bother.. unless it is for their.. ahems.. tt one dun say la! ahahah.. =P.. heh !

oh yea~ ytd we also celebrated alvin's and liying's birthday.. the couple! ahaha.. =P.. so close sia their birthday!! ahahah.. den b4 that.. jac said some stuff to me that made me quite upset.. ya.. but after i read thru her blog, i realise why also.. so i got over it somehow.. yeah.. firstly, i would like to explain, jac..

it's true, people want to move to a better jc if they scored better.. no doubt about that.. everyone definitely has a conception that better jc produces better results.. and many move to good jcs for fame, glory, and a silent hope to do better in their a lvls.. it's not that we doubt in neighbourhood jcs.. and i dun blame you for shooting your mouth off at me.. i understand perfectly now..

i maybe was from a neighbourhood school since young.. i know how it felt to looked down upon, how those famous schools are all so high and mighty.. conceited some might say.. confident they call themselves.. it really depends on your perception.. i admit i haven't done well in my PSLE.. and hence ended up in nan chiau.. and prelims allowed me to go to nyjc..

wen u ask me abt my choices and shot me.. i felt really bad.. why? basically, i am in love wid nyjc.. i love nyjc a lot.. for it's culture.. building.. friends.. og.. ct.. teachers who are supportive.. but to me this really is a perfect jc already.. i couldn't ask for more.. i have gone nyjc hating it.. and coming out loving it deeply.. what makes a school but the pupils and teachers who belong there? but the reason i am pursuing a better jc is because of my parents..

i don't think you know why i chose those jcs? let me tell you.. the day before ytd.. i got a huge scolding.. i wanted to go back to nyjc.. badly.. but my family wun allow it.. they wanted me to go to a better jc.. and for that.. i still haven't found out the reason.. but i am sure that after thinking it over.. maybe it would be better.. i was so pissed that day..

and the next day you shot at me, i was really v v angry.. why don't you people understand me? yes yes yes.. wadeva.. it may sound grand to place rjc hcjc njc and vjc in my freaking choices for all i care.. but wad the fuck man? do you tink given a choice i would ever want to go there? with all my friends around and more nc friends coming into nyjc? i would wanna fucking remain..

but no matter wad.. you heard my choices.. nyjc was still inside.. and you know why? because i wanted to go back in.. but i understand you are in a very weird mood nowadays.. so i won't take it to heart i guess? i know how you feel after readin your blog.. those schs are high n mighty i agree.. but it is also they who would lead us next time.. perhaps hand in hand with us.. actually a jc is just a facility that leads us to university.. ever jc has a single cause.. and it is to prepare their pupils to go uni..

true.. they do look down on us.. i agree totally.. but wad if i could go there and inspire a new mind set? and if you doubt me.. or feel that 1 person may be too insignificant to cause anything.. a drop of water causes ripples in a calm water.. and a mosquitoe is significant enough to keep you from slping in peace.. isn't that only a small insignificant one causing a huge difference?

but i am sorry too that i couldn't understand how you feel and that i felt angry wid my own ogl.. i'm sorry too.. yes.. so let's forgive and bury the hatchet ya? og12 still needs to stay together..

anyway.. we went to have a bachelor's party for v day.. i, si xu, maurice, jankin and kai hwa! we all headed to paradiz to have a game of pool to kill loneliness n boredom! we're bachelors man!! ahahah.. actually hor wenkai wanna join us.. but he scared late for practise again.. so nvm la.. nxt time bro.. ahaha..

den we all played team games.. v fun la.. ahahha..=P.. heh!! kai hwa's nemesis is the red ball.. it never ever went in.. and once it hit the side of the pocket and knocked the white ball into the other pocket.. FIERCE sia! ahahaha.. so funny man.. i almost died laughing.. and i managed to do the first jump ball to knock another ball into the pocket.. pro boh!.. ahahha..=P.. with much of luck to aid me of course!! ^^..

den we all threw mani balls into single pockets.. den in the end.. all the 15 balls got stuck!!!! ALL OF US FREAKED OUT.. ahahaha.. den we all lifted on end of the table and tilt it and bumped it back to the ground.. !! ahahaha.. 10 over times den we managed to bring all the balls out.. gosh!! ahahha.. =P..

den my dad did one of the most romantic things ever.. he bought dinner and a bunch of roses to surprise my mum!! the roses look gorgeous!! ahahah.. =P.. love never dies out i guess? no matter how much you may quarrel and stuff.. lol.. ahaha.. heh~!

den connie came over for dinner.. mum's colleague.. had a family cum fren dinner.. ahahha.. food was fab! i ate a lot a lot!!! ahahah.. =P.. special occasion.. but i better lose weight soon!! ahahah.. =P..

anyway pe was also fun.. and SORRY WAN TENG.. we all had to drag you while travelling at such a fast pace.. sorry sorry! we should have carried you somehow.. ahahaha.. ya lor! =P..

anyway tt's about all for ytd.. and today i am dead beat.. v tired.. ahaha.. ok la.. i go chat wid jason ogl liao! ciaos.. and special thanks to kai bin for being such a gd pal.. ya..

take care ppl..

LiN2o13
Phoenix ogm og12 nyjc cto615, always..

LiN2 12:43 AM